Thursday, April 03, 2008
I just read an emotional blog. A real good one i'd say. Emo is nothing wrong, really, for example i am a hybrid, being a spasmo. Alright that is beside the point. Emo is not equals to masochistically cutting yourself or doing stupid things and thinking about suidcide all day. More of a feeling of rich emotions, or being flooded/spammed more than others around you.
When you build that dam for your own emotions from young, alot of factors do come in so some people's might be weaker than the others, and it really does not help if you simply label them as Emo people, they never really like to wear that brand everywhere they go and listen to comments of " hey that person is dam emo". Just thought i should clear it up before i go on.
So i see, emoness or that term that we use to call the degree of emo of a person is more dependent on attitude and of course surrounding environment. Some people just cant be bothered about grades while to others it means everything, then again it might be due to pressure from parents etc. the joining factors are exhaustive. So say, for somebody, alot of bad stuff just happen to hit that person in the area which the person cares about the most. Natural response is all the negative emotions, Despair/Sad/Anger etc.
Alright like i said, the dam breaks sometimes varying from the degree of the problems they face. So they like to express themselves, to a certain extent, unwillingly at times. It feels bad and it turns their day upside down. And of course sometimes it is best to just blurt it all out, for example on blogs. And since blogs are public spaces, they have taken to habit of using analogies that most people don't understand and find to be too "deep", and conviniently label them emo.
Yet i think, apart from all these stuff that they blurt out, some are really nice stuff to read for us, but of course, painful stuff for them. You see very nicely phrased words of encouragements on the tagboards, very heartwarming too. Yah, but apart from all the talks about "picking yourself up and trying again" kind of stuff, or " don't quit in your hardest times", there really aint much.
Ok i believe no more than 7% of us can really take heed from those words and get back together because of them, the other 93% live in books and history. Normally, time just heal us up without knowing, and of course when it does, it wont hurt to look back anymore. Yet it is whether you want to heal or not.
Just leaving that thing alone would definitely help alot. People say when someone suddenly becomes super hyper and different, he is trying to cover up his emotional problems. I think it is one of the more effective ways to do it, is really to dismiss it. They tell you its hard to not think about it since its affecting you, actually it is not, at least for problems at our age. You really think of such stuff while you laugh with your friends at yourself? Pre-occupying yourself is not a cover/shell etc. It is a method, a good one. Because time is really the best healer.
If you choose to not want to snap out of it, you try to go back, as i know some do, you just plunge yourself in alot further. What i think is that we must really want to get out, when you do, the way out is really clear and simple. Ok who the heck thinks about his lousy grades even if it means a hell lot to his parents and him when he is really enjoying his game of soccer. You say it comes back after a while? definitely, or else it wont be a problem right, find something to do, after a while, it will come back slowly, lighter and lighter. Of course the difference won't be noticeable at sight, but later on it will show.
Talking to your good friends etc. is just a let out. What's the point of a let out if you continue to brood over what you just let out. So basically you are telling yourself, i dont want it inside me and i cant bear to let it go? Ironic? Maybe emotions are illogical but sometimes, you have to rule with your head. To all those who disapprove what i stated so far, i'd say i have been reasoning, not trying to use emotions in anything much above, but if you snap out of that clash between your head and your heart one day, and i hope this helps, you will see. Because reality has it for us, you cant run on emotion engine full day, yet it is part of our nature, so learn to choose appropriately.
Dispatch them as soon as possible, leaving it alone would be the best, rather than tangle yourself up in useless frustration you cant resolve as of yet. Let time do its work. As for people around these people, we should all be more sensitive, whatever way we deem appropriate, i guess thats where you choose to use your emotions to feel how they are feeling and act accordingly. The clash exists in the greatest men, so don't over trouble yourself trying to overcome it, just make the best decision out of every situation and bear your own consequences.
At least, you'll know how to choose better next time, and next time, and next time...
To all those out there, just do your best man.
& more clueless fears.
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