Saturday, July 12, 2008
I think if i were a bottle, i would at least be more than half full by now. Why? I think i have so much thoughts inside me. I think it really is inside us all.
Maybe one day when we could be bothered, we could disconnect ourselves from our busy lives momentarily, sit down and be really calm and peaceful. We'd gain immense clarity and wisedom just searching through our own thoughts which we neglected all these while.
I ain't just crapping, it's scientific. A human utilize his/her brain much more than how we normally lay it to waste under extreme conditions, be it fear happiness sadness calm or during meditation. That explains alot, like why a cornered enemy is so dangerous or why those wise monks meditate so much.
I think we might not be able to afford such time and effort, the world we exist in leaves us with little choices. But still with the available options we could spare some time to reflect. Sound so 孔子, 温故而知新, but reflecting is not an ancient process meant for the dogs in modern society. It really is a necessity and wonderful experience. And i certainly mean reflect, learn and move on. So yeah, before anyone start saying i encouraging brooding and nostalgia.
I think i must have played the song more than 200 times over the past 3 days. It is literally ringing in my heard. Haha, whilst i was lying in bed, i just had this funny feeling, like some kind of spasm or shudders going up my face and my ears became blocked. And the music started playing in my ears.
I think, those are really special moments. When we can let go of the urge to chase for answers, to stop wanting to think and just let our hearts control us and random stuff that truly stick with us begin popping up in our heads and all over our body, making us truly feeling it. Maybe our brain really ain't meant to surpass our heart.
When we know everything, then what is there to live? I think faith and passion really serves the heart well, and in turn serves us well as well. We need a translucent staunch belief, we need to trust even when we cannot see fully, have faith even when we know not everything. If not where comes our motivation if there are no uncertainties, no risks.
Haha, on a lighter mood, i think what i conjured really means alot now, somehow eventually by some process, no matter how bad life gets sometimes we'd eventually and subtly end up at a certain resuting juncture. And the journey carries on from there. Life can get harder, but life will make the person stronger steadily to adapt as well.
APCG, oh great. Time to catch up on all my work after missing school for an entire week. Damn, still cant exercise though, it's going to be one hell of a boring week. Somehow, it'd get by as well. I'd try to make full use of the time on my part.
And i think i am really different haha. Totally screwed physics quiz but not maths test. For everyone else it was the other way round. Haha but not my fault also! My medicine made me so groggy and unconscious and physics quiz had to be the first period. Damn.
Haha but i get extra a day or 2 to mug maths, perhaps that helped?
塞翁失马，祸福难测
So let's not jump to conclusion on anything first yeah. Maybe theres alot more good and bad to come!
Pace man, watch the pace~
Adieu
& more clueless fears.
9:05 AM
